what am i doing with my life? part I

its such an interesting question. right now? i'm working in marketing and advertising. i enjoy it. i enjoy the people i work with. i believe in what my company is trying to do to help small businesses, because i believe in small business.

but thats not where my heart is. my heart is in teaching and ministry. my heart is in sharing the love of an Almighty God. but really sharing that love. giving a cup of water to someone who is thirsty, and just doing that. i love the musical form of worship. just playing with a band, and playing with everything i have, play for One, the only One who deserves its.

i'm trying to reconcile the rockstar in me with the worship side in me. its tough. i'm working on it. i love attention. i always have. i grew up doing theatre and drama, so worship is a challenge sometimes that i don't get caught up in that attitude. but i'm working on it.

do i want to go to seminary? yes. do i want to go to seminary? no. i'm thinking about fuller in cali. i'm thinking about eastern in philly. i've heard great things about both. i'm not concerned with "liberal" christianity, and i don't want "conservative" christianity either. because neither one is me. i'm concerned with Christ.

i hate labels. i just hate 'em so effing much. i want people to understand what it means to make faith their own. i have a burning to desire to see the young adults around indy do something of purpose. to live with purpose. we (because i am in this group) are just waiting to be inspired!! we don't want just a place to hang out and maybe hear a testimony. what a damn waste of time. honestly. we can do that anywhere.

we want our friends to experience church. but we don't to bring them to a building that may have such negative connotations assiociated with it. we want them to experience the community, the authenticity, and the revolutionary spirit of the Gospel. if we are the next generation of leaders in the church, its time to get off our asses and do something. honestly. i'm so guilty of it. waiting for someone else to get here to organize it.

i hate the fact that i have to go through the appropriate channels of an organization( read: church) so that i can get something like this going. but i do. my buddy, nic, who is a very entrepreneur minded person said "who cares what they say. if it needs to be done. do it." it was great.

hopefully, something will happen here in the next week or so. some people get together. talk about what we want to happen. what we envision a ministry for us to look like. it'll be interesting.

i'm just trying to learn more. cos thats all this is. pass on the knowledge that has been passed to me. thats my responsibility. teaching people its not about being right. its about a journey.

be good to each other. look at Christ. peace.