home
home has nothing to do with a place.
i mean, it can. . . but its not dependent on it. rather home is when you are complete. when that person, or those people around you are ALL there, and everyone makes each other complete.
the place you sleep, eat, bathe, watch tv, etc. is just a building. its the people inside it that make it home. see, the building that is my house is back in indiana. but my new residence is here in socal. and i'm trying to make it home.
and to be sure, i have great people around me that are making this place seem more like home. but it can't be home until she's here. she makes it home. when i think of life down the line, i want to come home to her. those two things go together. mckinna & home.
someday. until then, going to bed is hard. driving home is hard. eating alone is hard. sleeping alone is hard. because its all alone. and yes, i'm sure i'll grow up alot in this season. and i'm sure the distance will be good for us, or whatever. actually, no. i'm dealing with the distance because it's what has to be done. but i'm not excited about it. i'm excited for it to be over. i'm excited for the day that its no longer, "i'll see you in two and a half weeks." that day can't come soon enough.
and please don't tell me about how God has great plans for me, and this is all part of plan, and how i shouldn't doubt God. because i know all of that. i'm not doubting anything. i am not doubting God's soveriegnity, or how God cares for His children. none of that. it just sucks right now, k?
thanks.
be good to each other. look at Christ. peace.
i mean, it can. . . but its not dependent on it. rather home is when you are complete. when that person, or those people around you are ALL there, and everyone makes each other complete.
the place you sleep, eat, bathe, watch tv, etc. is just a building. its the people inside it that make it home. see, the building that is my house is back in indiana. but my new residence is here in socal. and i'm trying to make it home.
and to be sure, i have great people around me that are making this place seem more like home. but it can't be home until she's here. she makes it home. when i think of life down the line, i want to come home to her. those two things go together. mckinna & home.
someday. until then, going to bed is hard. driving home is hard. eating alone is hard. sleeping alone is hard. because its all alone. and yes, i'm sure i'll grow up alot in this season. and i'm sure the distance will be good for us, or whatever. actually, no. i'm dealing with the distance because it's what has to be done. but i'm not excited about it. i'm excited for it to be over. i'm excited for the day that its no longer, "i'll see you in two and a half weeks." that day can't come soon enough.
and please don't tell me about how God has great plans for me, and this is all part of plan, and how i shouldn't doubt God. because i know all of that. i'm not doubting anything. i am not doubting God's soveriegnity, or how God cares for His children. none of that. it just sucks right now, k?
thanks.
be good to each other. look at Christ. peace.
posted by marcelliott at 2:53 AM
1 Comments:
I think i'm gonna cry, marc...shall I quote some scripture? Uh...no. I know this TOTALLY sucks for you. I wish so bad Mack could be here now too. Soon. And hopefully not the 'soon' that Jesus referred to when he said he was 'coming back soon' - cause THAT would suck...but that is probably what it feels like. Well, for now we are here to help you cope and one day it will be perfect here when you and McKinna are complete...then we'll have a big party! And in the mean time 2 weeks 3 days!
...help yourself to the fridge.
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